Post by Loki on Feb 12, 2008 2:05:10 GMT -5
....have feelings for is getting MARRIED, what do you do? Now don't get this confused, I MAY have feelings for her. I'm at a point in my now where NOTHING makes sense to me and I may quite possibly be suffering from some kind of psychosis so who knows but anyway....
The chick, who Leak may or may not remember, is someone I was best friends with for....what's 13 to 18....5 years (wow, I can't believe that took so long to figure out and yes I had to type it). To put it his way, I loved the girl that entire time, everything led back to her and yet when I actually had her I blew it, twice. I didn't think anything of it, normally didn't for the girls I knew I had, but always realized awhile down the road that, "crap, I think I really love that girl."
A couple of months ago, I drove out to her job and decided to see her. Yea, she's getting married. Talk about my heart dropping into my stomach for a minute. All of a sudden, I wanted her back so bad and while it goes away sometimes, it comes back from time to time, especially in bad times. To be honest, my two go arounds with her were probably my happiest times relationship-wise, no fights, no garbage, unfortunately I insisted on ending them sooner than I should have probably.
Now, my girlfriend and I have broken up. I was bugging about it, granted I did the breaking up and it still seems like we're together to an extent. The girl doesn't care and guess who I have a dream about, yup the old girl. Does it mean anything? Maybe, maybe not but I'm interested to see her but oh wait, she's engaged. I haven't spoken to her in months, it's near impossible, what do I do? If anything....
The chick, who Leak may or may not remember, is someone I was best friends with for....what's 13 to 18....5 years (wow, I can't believe that took so long to figure out and yes I had to type it). To put it his way, I loved the girl that entire time, everything led back to her and yet when I actually had her I blew it, twice. I didn't think anything of it, normally didn't for the girls I knew I had, but always realized awhile down the road that, "crap, I think I really love that girl."
A couple of months ago, I drove out to her job and decided to see her. Yea, she's getting married. Talk about my heart dropping into my stomach for a minute. All of a sudden, I wanted her back so bad and while it goes away sometimes, it comes back from time to time, especially in bad times. To be honest, my two go arounds with her were probably my happiest times relationship-wise, no fights, no garbage, unfortunately I insisted on ending them sooner than I should have probably.
Now, my girlfriend and I have broken up. I was bugging about it, granted I did the breaking up and it still seems like we're together to an extent. The girl doesn't care and guess who I have a dream about, yup the old girl. Does it mean anything? Maybe, maybe not but I'm interested to see her but oh wait, she's engaged. I haven't spoken to her in months, it's near impossible, what do I do? If anything....
