The Prospect: Shannon Kennedy

[Loki]

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November 13th, 2004
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Mood: .
Listening to: Wanksta.
Reading: Nothing.
Watching: ESPNEWS.
Playing: College Hoops 2k5.
Eating: Nothing.
Drinking: Sprite homie!

Ah, another win in the books! Last season, New Mexico State beat the piss out of us in more ways than one but this time we matched them score wise and while our defense played pretty terrible again they stepped up when needed and got us the 65-51 win! 9-1 baby!

I'll admit I was never sure this team could ever be this strong but we are and I'm proud to say it. We're unranked, which is a scam, and not National Champion contenders thanks to that loss, but I think we've really made the best of this season thus far and will continue to until the end of the season. Hopefully next season, we can do even better.

Next weekend is our final WAC game of the season. With that win we take the conference over Boise State; this will be the first time since their entry into the WAC conference that they did not win the Conference Championship. I think I can be pretty happy with that. Plus, I'm still in the lead for most writers' Heisman Race. Schweet!

Ashley and I still haven't patched things up, sucks a lot. I miss that girl so much, wish I would have realized what I had. Meanwhile, Chloe's divorce is really official and she's saying she loves me and all this stuff.

I think it might be a bad idea to fall into it with her again....but I'm gonna.

The reporters are flocking to the campus again. Apparently the car dealer has evidence on me, crap....

[Loki]

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November 21st, 2004
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Mood:
Listening to: TV.
Reading: Nothing.
Watching: Boy Meets World, FTW!
Playing: Nothing.
Eating: Pizza snitches.
Drinking: Sprite.

Udaho! Woo! 10-1, WAC champions, bowl bid baby! Cue Dick Vitale, "It's freakin' awesome baby!"

Haha, I'm so lame.

Idaho was a nice, simple step to that. We beat them handily....85-20. The defense showed up big and obviously so did the offense. I went 25-of-34 for 508 yards and 6 TD passes along with 6 carries for 39 yards and 3 TD's. No joke. I did the Heisman pose on my last run in. I'm so dirty. Seriously, I jumped over some dude, spun the next, and trucked the last one in my way. I had to do the Heisman.

We were ecstatic in the locker room, I think we did the macarena. I'm still trying to figure out why someone had that on CD....lol. Rutgers is up next and it's hard for me to worry anymore, we're just that good. .

They're talking MPC Computers Bowl for us vs. one of the ACC teams, probably Clemson or something. Fine by me. I'd love to do the Heisman on them all day!

Thanksgiving is Thursday so I think I might head home for a day or two to be with the family, not like I have it to spend with Ashley or anything....*sigh*. Probably won't write in this again until the weekend, so Happy Thanksgiving ladies and gents!

[cooljayhu]

seriously dude you need a new set of sliders. It's fun seeing you tear up D's but at a point it gets ridiculous and kinda boring.

[Loki]

cooljayhu said:

seriously dude you need a new set of sliders. It's fun seeing you tear up D's but at a point it gets ridiculous and kinda boring.

Yea I know, kinda don't know what to run though. Last season I didn't find to be too bad b/c I was throwing a million passes and plenty of picks but this season I've gotten better so I do need some new sliders or something.

[Loki]

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December 3rd, 2004
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Mood: ;D.
Listening to: Nothing
Reading: Nothing.
Watching: Nothing.
Playing: Nothing.
Eating: Nothing.
Drinking: Water.

And we're headed to the MPC Computers Bowl to take on Virginia Tech! I'm pretty excited for this game, it's gonna be BIG.

Rutgers gave us a run for our money and we nearly blew it at the end but our back-up back, little 36 blasts their linebacker and dashed into the endzone for the game-winning on what I was sure was a terrible call by Coach. Guess I was wrong. The stadium went crazy. 11-1 baby!

I apologize to all those that read, I've been really busy going through finals and a lot of other drama in my life. I probably won't be getting another post up until after the MPC Computers Bowl. I love you fans, woo! Heisman ceremony is coming up soon, wish me luck!

[SilverChaosVII]

I can give my my set next time I hook up my PS3. I get some pretty realistic games with mine. Of course that's from receiver...

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[Loki]

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December 28th, 2004
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Merry belated Christmas to all! Unfortunately, for me, I came in second in the Heisman race. I think it's a scam but I can't complain, Matt Leinart is an amazing athlete, I still think I deserved to win it.

Oh well.

The MPC Computers Bowl more than made up for it. Talk about atmosphere, I could not hear anything the entire game. There had to have been a hundred thousand Virginia Tech fans in there which sucked for us but hey, what are you gonna do?

Surprisingly, VA Tech really didn't show up. I'm actually kinda upset about it. They had 7 points up until nearly the end of the fourth quarter where they snuck in 28 points to make themselves look better. I was hoping for some amazing game to really boost my career but all it did was look like we played an overrated team. We won 73-35 for those that care. I actually thought we were gonna be playing a real difference and we wouldn't blow them out but we did. I should be happy, and I am, but I wanted better.

I played probably my best game going 21-of-29 for 412 yards, 4 TD's, 1 INT, 9 carries for 94 yards, and 3 TD's. Little 36 was big in this game again and tacked on another 2 TD's on the ground and David Davis had a KR TD as well. We played great and I'm proud of those boys.

Now it's time for the offseason and probably more drama relating to this whole scandal about me. I can't believe some of the crap going on in my life, seriously, and these pills aren't making things any better.

I'll be writing again no doubt as more drama in my pain in the ass life enfolds so keep your eyes peeled folks.

Happy New Year btw! I'll probably be spending it alone, woohoo!

Final 2004-05 Stats: 307-of-461, 5587 yards, 70 TD's and 22 INT's, 141 carries, 1579 yards, and 20 TD's.

[Loki]

silverchaosvii said:

I can give my my set next time I hook up my PS3. I get some pretty realistic games with mine. Of course that's from receiver...

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That's the thing I can see how that stuff happens at computer + different offense. I'm running Hawaii's set and maybe I should change that to someone who passes a little less or something. Something more Flutie like?

[Loki]

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February 3rd, 2005
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Well it's been awhile since I've written in here and I guess I got a lot to explain.

For the past couple months I've developed an alcohol problem as well as an addiction to pain killers and some other pills. Didn't think it was a big deal at first, everyone does that stuff down here. It started with some aderall so I could concentrate in class and I eventually just branched out into the other stuff. I don't know what it was, it just made things easier for me.

Of course, combining that with alcohol is no good.

Three weeks ago, I landed myself in the hospital. I overdosed. It wasn't intentional, I just took too much and drank it with alcohol, stupid me. I was lost for so long and they just seemed to make me feel like everything was normal when I knew deep down it wasn't. Nothing was gonna bring my cousin back, nothing was going to make all this drama with the car dealership go away, and I truly believed nothing was gonna bring Ashley back to me. What better way to handle that than numb?

The whole process was terrifying. Within a bit of taking the pills, everything got all fuzzy and before I knew it, I was falling to the floor and everything went black. The last thing I remember is hearing Harrell shouting for me to wake up. After that, all I saw was black and then a bright white light flashed in my face. I couldn't see anything but a black silhouette that looked far away.

Was it God? I questioned it for a moment but something almost seemed to answer the question in my mind for me.

"Oh no," I thought. I was worried just what this meant. Before I knew it I was pleading Him for forgiveness and telling him I wanted him in my life, I needed his guidance in my life because I didn't want to be so miserable anymore and I definitely didn't want to live with this ridiculous, arrogant lifestyle any longer.

I got no replies back but I felt settled as if I knew He heard me and He would help me. For so many months now I'd been pleading for help but then going out and do everything He didn't want me to. I was miserable and I finally understood why that really was.

Another white light flashed in my face and I panicked for a moment but decided if this was what was necessary than so be it. Suddenly beeping noises and jumbled up voices filled my head. A few silhouettes filled my sight and became clearer slowly. I was at the hospital.

"I got a pulse!" shouted one of the nurses.

The doctor flashed a light bulb in my eyes and checked to see how I was doing I guess or whatever it is I did.

"I think he's coming to," said the doctor.

I awoke to a tube sucking the crap outta my stuck and Ashley by my side. Ashley, one of the most pure things in my life, I never should have let her go. Perhaps her and I really were meant to be after all?

I could see the tears that had been streaming down her face and I felt terrible. How could I do this to her? I'd never do it again. It was time to face reality, no more running.

As I said it's been three weeks, Ashley is still scared to go back out with me but I'm doing my best. I've been struggling to fight my urge to take some pills, especially with my shoulder aching of late, but I've done my best. I can't give in to these things and I know when it all comes down to it, God, is the crutch I need to lean on whether many of you agree with that or not.

Gotta get dressed, weight lifting today. Leave it!

“The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. (Psalms 18:2)”

[Buzz Killington]

You idiot, you're always supposed to go to the light! Now your life will continue to be miserable, no matter what you do to change it.

[Loki]

usmaman said:

You idiot, you're always supposed to go to the light! Now your life will continue to be miserable, no matter what you do to change it.

lol.

[Loki]

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April 1st, 2005
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Before I write this, yes I realize the date but this is not a joke.

As of today, I have officially been kicked off the San Jose State University football team. After almost a year of fighting for neck I decided I couldn't hold it in any longer.

It is true that I, Shannon Kennedy, accepted gifts, including a 2004 Corvette, from a car dealership, during the 2004 offseason. I'm not happy with it but to be quite honest, I'm not all that remorseful except for the fact that I let me teammates, fans, and university down. I don't understand how I was supposed to live with no money or anything but hey, I don't make the rules. I will be entering my name into the NFL Draft next spring but until then I'll be working hard to keep myself in shape since....well I've got nowhere to play now.

I know this is going to upset a lot of people and everything but I hope you people can continue to support me, especially at a time such as this.

Once again I apologize for what I have done to harm those of you who had faith in me but I am not sorry for doing it so that I could live. If they'd let us have a job or something, I never would have had to do this.

I'm sorry....

[Buzz Killington]

Told you.

[McGahee]

With the extra time, Shannon should become a 2-sport star. Maybe pick up on Competitive Porn Watching or Ultimate Sack Tapping...

[Loki]

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June 2nd, 2005
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So here I am, still attending SJSU, though quite a few people care to even look at me. It seems I've lost everybody except Ashley. I'm so glad she's been here with me because I don't know what I would have done. I hate that I messed things with her up and I hope we can re-set our wedding date soon!

I've been working out with speed Coach Tom Shaw, doing my best to keep my speed up and keeping myself all conditioned for the combine and workouts in February. It's a long ways away still but I gotta keep in shape. It's rough flying and back and forth from here to Orlando on weekend but I gotta do it. I gotta prove all these people wrong, I want to be a pro football player.

Thomas Harrell said the team is looking pretty good this year. I hate that I screwed them over so bad, hopefully they can do well without me but if I gotta be honest, Idk if they can do it.

Oh well, what are you gonna do? Here's to my final 9 credits here at this university this summer and then it's back home sweet home!

[Loki]

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July 28th, 2005
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Well it's official, I've got myself a bachelor's degree in Business....woot! Nice to know my hard work in something paid off. Unfortunately, Ashley's still got 15 credits left and has to take it in the Fall. I don't know what's gonna happen to us, I'm going back to the East Coast but she lives out here, I never realized how messed up that could make us. I just hope things work themselves out and we can still be together....

Football season is inching closer. Ugh....

My brother, James is in his Senior year now at ACC. They lost the state championship last year but he wasn't complaining, he already won it in his Sophmore year. He has a verbal commitment to Penn State already but of course, that can change. Michigan, Ohio State, Pittsburgh, and Syracuse are all on the table as well. Lucky him and that football size of his. Kid's gonna be a star, I promise you that!

The draft is not soon enough let me tell you!

Go Spartans!

[Loki]

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November 1st, 2005
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Home sweet home! Haha, yea I know I haven't written in here in months. Just haven't felt compelled to do so with the lack of football in my life. Been home since August and have been counting down the days until Ashley is graduated as well and we can move on with things in our lives. She's already got some job offers on the table for some companies over here on the East Coast as well as some on the West Coast. For those that don't know, she wants to be an athletic trainer. Why do you think I was hardly ever hurt for long at SJSU?

No, not steroids!

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Thankfully, I never stooped that low and thankfully I never will. I'm glad that I got all that stuff off my chest this past summer, it really opened things up for me to live this new life of mine and put that bad past of mine behind.

Been throwing the ball around a lot with James lately. Allentown Central Catholic is on the verge of another district championship and probably a State Championship as well, my brother is unbelievable man!

Oh, what the? Chloe's calling, I'm out, peaaaace!

[Loki]

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November 24th, 2005
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Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Just got done stuffing my face with some turkey, sweet potatoes, and all that good stuff.

Ashley flew out to see me. I love this girl and we set our wedding date again....August 9th, woo! Can't help be excited for something like that. This girl is what I looked for all my life and she's always been here for me. Doesn't get much better than that does it?

I stopped training with Coach Shaw, it got too costly. I'm training with some people up at Temple University, I think I'm gonna impress some people let me tell you. I know all you fans are excited to see Shannon beastin' it on the gridiron soon. It'll happen don't worry!

I'm out, time for some family Turkey Bowl football with the fam, peaaaace.

BTW, SJSU went 5-7....sorry guys.... .

[Loki]

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January 1st, 2006
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Well....Happy New Year I guess. Another miserable start for me. Chloe decided she was gonna call as the ball dropped and totally ruined the moment for Ashley and I. Let's just say Ashley wasn't happy. I answered, like an idiot. Ugh....

I've officially entered my name into the draft pool and will hopefully be invited to the Scout Combine in February. Until then, I'm gonna try and find some place to set up a Pro Day, maybe local D-2 school, East Stroudsburg University will let me utilize their facilities or something. I sure hope so.

Time to try and make up with Ashley, wish me luck....heh.

[Loki]

How bout you whiney little girls read this thing!

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