Post by Loki on Nov 9, 2007 10:55:36 GMT -5
About 5 weeks ago to this day, I ate a donut from Dunkin Donuts and moments after finishing the donut I felt as if I was high, cotton mouth, the whole nine yards. I panicked and had my girlfriend drive me home quickly. I'm still not sure whether there was something in my donut or if it was an allergic reaction to the nuts on the donut.
Since then, I've had panic attacks or at least some kind of anxiety for about an hour everyday after every single thing I eat. It's literally driving me insane and I can't seem to get a handle on it. There's no factual information to make me feel better that no one has poisoned my food, whether it be cereal, granola bars, anything bagged or boxed really. I don't know what goes on in the factory so I can't convince myself that a person wouldn't be able to tamper with my food in any way.
Now I sit here everyday, debating on what to eat in the morning, at lunch occasionally, and at night for dinner. It's annoying and ridiculous. I can't find anything on anyone being poisoned from the foods I'm fearing, hell, I've never been poisoned by anything I'm eating and yet I still fear them because there's nothing telling me it can't happen. This fear of dying has bugged me since my cousin was killed last year and now it feels like it's really hit me and I'm worried it'll never go away. I went to a psychiatrist yesterday but unfortunately, she's not sure she can help me and might recommend me somewhere else.
What the hell do I do now?
Since then, I've had panic attacks or at least some kind of anxiety for about an hour everyday after every single thing I eat. It's literally driving me insane and I can't seem to get a handle on it. There's no factual information to make me feel better that no one has poisoned my food, whether it be cereal, granola bars, anything bagged or boxed really. I don't know what goes on in the factory so I can't convince myself that a person wouldn't be able to tamper with my food in any way.
Now I sit here everyday, debating on what to eat in the morning, at lunch occasionally, and at night for dinner. It's annoying and ridiculous. I can't find anything on anyone being poisoned from the foods I'm fearing, hell, I've never been poisoned by anything I'm eating and yet I still fear them because there's nothing telling me it can't happen. This fear of dying has bugged me since my cousin was killed last year and now it feels like it's really hit me and I'm worried it'll never go away. I went to a psychiatrist yesterday but unfortunately, she's not sure she can help me and might recommend me somewhere else.
What the hell do I do now?